Above.

Did it really work???

Surely not!!!

Is it bad that it might have?

Was I weak?

Maybe……….

Does it matter?

Not to me.

Did I win?

Did I lose?

Even thou I kept forgetting.

So, surely it must have meant it work!

I kept thinking about it.

Everyday.

But when it mattered, I forgot!!

This I didn’t need to write down.

Everything else had to be written down.

Was it a battle?

No!!

The only battle was when I was near, I would forget.

It was very frustrating!

Very annoying!!

I was now getting desperate.

Day after day.

It was my secret.

A good one?

YES!!

Sigh, I forgot again!!!!!

But where did I first see it?

Was it on the telly?

Was it advertising?

Did it really work?

On me?

I thought I was above that!

Clearly not.

Nothing else was at the back of my mind.

Nothing else was at the front of my mind.

It got stronger.

And STRONGER.

S.t.r.o.n.g.e.r.

It was only a matter of time.

But why that?

Surely there were other things nicer?

What was the trigger?

I just don’t know!!!

I could almost taste if, that were possible.

It was a challenge.

An odd one.

It was clear to me; this was not going away.

Thank goodness.

I didn’t want it to.

I definitely wanted to lose this battle.

Or should that be win this battle?

It was hopeless, but that was Good.

I knew what I wanted.

There were different types.

Would it be the fat one?

Would it be the dark one?

Would it be the big one?

Or the small one?

Original is best!

At a time like this.

Back to basics.

My mind was made up.

Focused.

Did it affect my breathing?

Possibly.

It was allowed to be acceptable.

I could go on.

And on.

I don’t know when or where I first saw it….

But yesterday it ended, with success.

I was in Sainsbury’s and saw it, some were very expensive.

I didn’t want that one, nor that one.

Then I saw it.

It was a pack of eight.

In Twos.

One hundred and four calories per serving, but I didn’t see that until tonight.

Yesterday I put it with excitement into my shopping basket.

I got in the car; I ripped open the pack and ate one.

In a minute I was at my Mums.

Even thou she is diabetic, I love her, so I gave her one.

I said, “Don’t tell William, her face said, “I wont!”

I ate another before my dinner.

I ate one after my dinner.

I ate one this morning before my breakfast, with my cup of tea.

That could be a First!

Each one satisfied me.

As equally as the next.

So, what got me gripped SO much?

That held my waking thoughts?

I have two left, tomorrow before work I Will buy another.

And another.

Until I am fully satisfied!

Kitkat.  

Was I the only one?

That it had gripped in their thoughts?

I had seen the adverts many times, but nothing had held my thoughts like this before.

Tomorrow will be Kitkat Day!

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