Relapse

i've nothing to write
but something to say
what does "self sabotage"
mean
to You?

I reach that elusive plane
"recovery"
and it rises out of the mists -
a mountain ridge
from which I trip stumble
Plummet

my new paths to salvation
spring grass back
thistle ping
invisible feint

helpme save me
You cant

The plagueweight pressing down on me
I dance with, rise above
and get Crushed