Alone in the Darkness

it's been two years since i've seen him yet the memory is still
alive. why is it that dreams haunt you? damn, sometimes i wish that my
dreams were of something horrible, then i wouldn't want them to come
true so much.

we've all fallen in love before, right? you know that feeling, the one
where you feel that you're in the corner watching all the beautiful
people live their lives how you've always wanted to live yours? that's
how i feel after i fall in love because everything starts crashing
down. that's why i don't trust you. nothing personal, it just means
that i want to be everything to you. i don't want to dissappoint you
like i disappoint myself.

ever since the first time i saw you i wanted to be with you. i know i
could never compare to maggie, the one you think is so hot. if you did,
i would've known you sooner. there's another reason why i can't get
comfortable with you.

the thing is, i've never made the first move on a guy until you came
along. even then you didn't make a move on me. that should have been my
first clue. so i did it again! god i must have been so dumb! then
finally you went after me, stalker style. following me up and down the
halls. you were always behind me! you told me that you loved me 3 days
into the relationship.

but i do love you. i've loved you for a long time. i'm afraid that i
can never compete with the girls that you have on pedastal even if you
say i'm the only one. i love you too much and i don't want to lose you.
but, i'm losing you everyday. when you say that you want to kill
yourself, when you drink, when you look at her. i'm losing you. and i
can't take it, it hurts me. it hurts me because i know you're not
really happy. i don't make you happy. you leave me alone int he
darkness.