Suicide - 24 hr deadline

I made a pact
with my conscience
within 24 hours
my heart will be dead
taking him with me
(this is no twisted fantasy).

He thinks I am
the truth
an answer to his world
forced my way into his head
he fucked my existence
in our bed.

An empty show I assume myself
in costume and we touch
with so much pleasure
how can I tell him I cheated
weakness drives me from truth
my deadline approaches with thirst.