When ‘present’ feels the ‘past’

Here comes the Spring break along with the excitement of week-off from classes blended with the warm feeling of spending time with your loved ones. When I saw students driving from dorms to home, I got a sudden nostalgia. It reminded me of my days of my undergraduate studies in my own country. Guys having home in nearby cities used to go in groups – shopping, traveling in train and finally reaching home. During those days I never thought of this day where I would stay for more than a year without seeing my family even once. Twists and turns in life – sometimes for something good on sake of something even more precious – are inevitable. There are moments in life – for everyone- which is beyond description and definition. The day I got my visa , I was excited (with the feeling of studying at an American University), depressed (for the reason that I won’t be able to see my family that often), concerned (with the feeling of standing up to the expectation and do well in future), apprehended in adjusting to a new environment. There were other inexplicable feelings. Since then, the peak and troughs made situation for life to go on a roller coaster ride. The thought of ‘accomplished a lot’ followed by the thought of ‘still to go’ had created those myriad transitions of moods possibly due to sometimes normal and sometimes elevated neurotransmitter release in brain – that’s what neuro-biologist account it for. To fight with situation is easy but to stand against your thoughts is intricate and sometimes tough. What you see, moves you back and forth in memory and scratches the dusty roads of the past. But, fortunately the life move on with string of achieving more than achieved, getting more than you got and thus further building the stack of memories which will ready to be excavated in future.