Watch Me Fall

im smiling
and
im running
and
im falling in the dirt
did you trip me on purpose?
or am i tripping
in my sense of self?
feel empty-headed
why should i assume you friendship
just because it worked before?

and ill fall over
yeah ill smack down on my head
and i wish i thought about
thinking
before im eating the grass
because im face down in my grave

and i will comfort you
and i will crash down
but if you're alone
youll stick around
to watch me fail

and ill scream
run a mile in your shadow
chase a country to escape your
influence
and i bitch about you to the ocean
but no ones there to listen

but

im still grinning
and
im still free-falliing
and
i can feel you walk
over the body
no respect
what do i give you
that is worthy of respect?
save for comfort in your problems
and security that you are better
off than me.

and i will comfort you
and i will crash down
but if you're alone
youll stick around
to watch me fail.