How it Ends?
By ruthmg
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Travelling through life I currently find myself on a journey through psychotherapy. Recurrent episodes of depression and work related burnout have culminated in the need for some deep soul searching. Recently this has meant some intense EMDR therapy - a specific therapy that aims to process traumatic memories properly so that they are no longer obtrusive in the present, so that they no longer bubble up and seep into the everyday. It is hard work and emotional and the following is an attempt to describe the experience of things resurfacing........ the things you think have been dealt with, the things you think you have put to bed, those things........
How it Ends?
Drama and Loss
Unquantifiable loss
All waived off as if nothing
But they weren’t nothing.
Carried on as if nothing
But it wasn’t nothing
The world oblivious
But still it wasn’t nothing
Drowning in slow motion
Sinking deeper in the nothing
Year after year
Loss after failure
After loss
Denying the nothing
Ignoring the nothing
But it still wasn’t nothing
It was never nothing
It was never nothing
And then the nothing started to scream out
The nothing began to cry
The nothing wanted to claim its place in the world
So it carried on screaming
Until one day
The nothing stood up and entered the room
The nothing was here now
Sat in the room
Staring me in the face
The nothing was here at last
Looking me straight in the eye
Demanding to be heard
So here we are at last
The nothing and me
Squaring up to dance at last
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