Not all there.

'NOT ALL THERE'
sneak

They labelled me a loser.
'Least likely to succeed'
Mentally unstable.
A 'special' kind of need.
Enthusiasm laboured.
Love without a care.
A disillusioned figure -
with annihilated stare.
Pills to pacify me.
Sedated shadows crawl.
I spend the day in hiding -
from nothing much at all.
Toxic trade tormentors.
Ghostly medics ply -
unwanted medication.
Prescribed unnatural high.
Electrodes at the ready.
The power of the mind.
A brain cell execution -
of a scientific kind.
And who am I to argue?
Just a number in a file.
A graph that plots, ironically,
the pattern of a smile.
I'd laugh but I'd be cautioned.
I'd cry but who would care?
I'd scream but no one listens -
to the boy that's 'not all there'
Resigned to desperation.
Involuntary codes.
Trapped within the system -
as insanity corrodes...

sneak