Feel

I feel filled with emotion, yet my facial expression remains a
constant distant drained picture. I feel as numb as cold fingers, yet I
feel full of confusion, frustration and rage is rioting through me. I
am as miserable as hell, and please someone explain it. I feel numb
right now. The only thing flowing through me is the inspiration I need
to write this.

Is he too numb? A question I now ask. What are two narcotic idiots like
us, doing, paired together trying to do? Why are two, as fucked up as
us, trying to find security in one another? No emotional bond can be
made possible. No undeniable love can lie between us. For we appear too
distant and too unresponsive to ever secure each other with love. We
just seem to be using each other so we can rape each other of our
sanity, so we can tear apart and fuck up.