Keeping Myself Locked In

How I must say,
I found out today,
I've got to say sorry.
I'll apologise to you all
In the hope that I'll no longer fall
Into the darkness
I've been keeping myself in.
I've been so unrational, I feel it's a sin
So I'll let you all in.
I'll stop acting inhumane
And become "somebody" again.
A real person
With real emotions.
Not taking things forgranted
And not saying the horrible things I've said.
Becoming me again.
Becoming sane again.