Cost

What will this cost me?
When all I have to do is cut you from my life,
But you know I won't do that,
Can't do that.

Fuck you,
Making a monkey out of me,
Forcing my time upon you,
When all I want to do is love you.

But not here, there's too much noise,
Lets go somewhere quiet,
Before I hurt myself,
Give up more than I can afford to lose,

I still despise the way you've made me,
But those eyes of yours they permiate,
And I hate not being able to tell you you're beautiful,
I hate you not wanting to hear it.

Maybe it's because I'm ugly,
I don't want to make
The distance between us un-jumpable,
But I'm contemplating at the edge.

What will this cost me?
You just rang,
And I'm beginning not to care,
However expensive.

All I know is whatever I do I will regret.