Can't find the words

You could cut the air
with a knife

we look at each other
wishing we weren't here

you take a deep breath
in and my heart is racing

 

why can't we find the
words

instead of making small
talk

I never know why

we can't talk

it impossible to know

for us

to both show

how we feel

but it's simply the end

 

later that night

the storm was raging
outside our window

your anger was there

I said

“sorry what did I do
“

you said

“I don't know what
you want of me”

and i said

" to be love”

you said

 maybe a long time
ago “

 

I couldn't stand you
taking control

I lost it

heaven knows

and I said

simply

“what is this”

 

we had a wars of words

hurting words

you said “I didn't
mean to say those things”

you took a drink then
you slam

the glass against the
wall

fell to your knees

and I knew we were done

 

you left in the morning
light

all was said and done

after last night

I woke up to find

note on my pillow

saying” good bye

your not to blame”

I shouted your name

I got up look out the
window

as I saw you drive away
in the pouring in rain

 

I ran downstairs and
stood in the rain

and read the rest of
your note

it said

“what is love

is lost

my heart bleeds

and I leave

it was not you it was
me.

hold on

don't let go

you're always

be part of you in me.

I couldn't stay you
see”

I as read your words

oh I wish the ground we

swollen me up

it seem unreal

as I look back

20 years later

I still feel the pain

this heart still love
you

it's insane