Think of the Dark

I can think of the dark,
I can't see the light.
What I make of the things in front
I tell to behind
Once again I'm screaming
Once again I'm quiet
For this I pay to the guard of the gates
I stop by the pit
All flowing
Manys* of people
Ever renewed,
None ever lost
Many of us go
Should any come back
The scars of our life
Reflect on our soul

Maimed he comes to me.
Talks in a tone
Unlike those below
Confident and defying
Tells me I've come.
Stop, don't say it here.
I'm going back
We all want to leave.
You say we have to stay.
Fuck you.
Abusive I ended my days.
Abusive I start the short few ahead.
How can you tell me to stay.
You earned it from him
So I earned it from you.
I tell you to stuff it,
The sun don't shine.
Get out of my way,
You gave me no ticket,
I can't stay.

*deliberate, bad but deliberate