Entry 3-"Cliques"

It may seem that by reading my past entries you would think i'm above all of the social standings and mainstreams of our century, but even as I seem, dare I say, "older" and "sophisticated", I am not devoid of the masks that we wear. The difference is I do not stick to one "clique", as they say. I like to be well rounded in anything, including this area some might see as a waste of time. And they are completely right, but even as they say this they have another agenda, or they wish to be seen as "popular", or any other thing that people yearn for in a society. Everyone has these desires, its nothing to be ashamed of. Just as going to the bathroom shouldn't, but is. Everybody does it so why does it have to be so secret all the time? Same with wanting to be accepted into a society that constantly judges people. I am very sorry I often get of track and don't realize how I am dragging on and making these entries so long. Well it is better that these are long because then as you read you can connect things better than if only a few sentences. Reading into the deeper meaning of things is much easier when you have more to work with. Oh! Look I've done it again, please forgive me, I just can't help myself. Okay to continue with my beginning statement.......I can play 8 Instruments consistent with my level, flute being my main. Although I do play other instruments, but at a much lower level because I haven't had much practice with them, so my main 8 are flute, piano, violin, cello, viola, saxophone, clarinet, and trumpet. Some might say this makes me a band geek at first glance, but then they look further on and realize that i'm also a pretty good athlete. I'm one of the better players on both my volleyball and basketball teams. I also do competitive swimming, but am currently on a break do to a torn ligament in my left ankle. I thank the gods that it wasn't volleyball or basketball because then I wouldn't be able to play the whole season, whereas I can get back into swimming at anytime. of course I enjoy playing other sports at leisure, but I don't enjoy them as much. And I almost forgot I play club soccer........State champs 3 years in a row! Now that's DEFINITLEY not all do to me, but I take pride in having such a great team to work with and having the chance to win with them. I guess you must be assuming since I play in band that I'm obsessive over my studies, which isn't exactly true. I don't enjoy school very much because they often reteach the same things and I don't learn anything new on a regular bases. I may not enjoy it but I try to do as best as I can......all A's and the occasional B because I would like to go to college to be a surgeon, and to do so I need to work very hard. This makes it so I'm always busy, but I manage to keep my social standing grounded. You might say im with the "popular" kids. It's not a very large group, but to say the least I don't particularly like all of them. Truthfully I only have a few close friends within the circle because they are all quite mean at times, to me and other people when it is not necessary. But I put up with them for the sake of my friends because they like them, which I have yet to figure out why. So I may be involved in all of these things yet sometimes I feel alone. I'm surrounded by all of these people that think they have the same interests as me, but they are truly, utterly, completely wrong. It's just my mask that they see. A mascaraed, and we all dance to the same repeating music until the end of our days. Writing is the only thing that changes the tune. And it's song suits my beat much better.......