bare my soul

Look around, everyone has a past, present and future. but
how much do you really know about them. would it be so wrong to know
everything about everyone. we have the introverts, the extroverts and
last but by no means least the savage beasts. These beasts may be well
hidden, maybe even within one of the other two categories but when they
strike, it's fast and painful. Myself being an introvert was least
expecting to be biten by such a beast. I turned my back for a split
second and it hit hard, through the spine loosing my will to live. the
pain starts in your back where you have effectively been stabbed, then
as time goes by your whole body fills with pain so excruciating that
words alone could not fully define it. No painkillers can touch it, no
cure or remedy. the pain is still with me as i speak so i have yet
to render a sufficient treatment.

I have done little
wrong in my life, well in my opinion anyway. But my opinion counts for
nothing in this case. as brutal as the above section reveals, no one
will expect the reason for my pain even though it is so common in the
21st century.

My name is Tia, I work hard day
and some nights to earn a living as i have done for 4 years since
leaving school. I am a quiet, polite individual with no real dark
depths, some would say i am quite an average boring
person, but i'm happy with that definition. A few months ago i
started dating a young man of indian descent. A very polite young
male, very similar to myself. Now my only fault - i kept it a secret as
i live amongst racists. yes those racists being my own family. A
few days ago my secret was revealed - not by me. Thats when my
pain began, now everyday i am bullied into a corner so small that
there is no air to breath, i am being suffocated by my nearest and
dearest. I have endured the racist jibe, i understand why suicide is so
common amongst the victims of bullys. I have been drained of my energy,
they have sucked my will to live dry. They laugh, I cry, they joke, i
choke.  

There is no ease to my pain, i am
slowly withering away into nothing. But my pain is not because of there
hatred for me but there single-minded racists thoughts and opinions. It
disgusts me to be related to such vicous animals. i have been savaged,
my soul is bare, visible for all to see. take a good look for before
long it will have disappeared into nothing, an empty
space.

Put your soul behind bars, under lock and key
otherwise you too will have to endure withering
life.

beware of the beasts, they are out to savage us
all and bare our shy souls for all to
see