A F K

Today is a new day,
And it's time,
Just to cut loose,
All these stupid things.
There is nothing here.
Here in this place,
You can't see my eyes,
And I know you don't understand.
So I lock and load,
Move on.
These are nights,
That will never end,
And these are bullets,
That are mine.
It's about time,
I cut loose.
So, I have a job to do,
A debt to pay,
And then it's over.
It's all over.
The places that await,
Are free of here,
And it will never be the same.
Have I lost my nerve?
Have I found the word,
I've been looking for,
Since the fall?
Or am I tired of you?
Tried by you,
And the weak words you spill,
Like you always will,
Bound by borders,
And low horizons.
These are pages I don't own,
These are places I shouldn't go,
But you don't see my eyes.
You place your life in my lines,
And your sorrows in my words.
But you don't know me at all.
Because you can't believe in me.
I'm tired, so very tired.
This wasn't what I wanted to be:
Just another stupid child,
Holding pieces of these dreams.
And I pull them out for you to see,
Like a baby.
I pull them out for you to see,
Them all.
But it doesn't let me be.
It still lives inside of me.
Because I am not human.
I am not like you,
Because of him.
I never was,
I'll never be.
So what do you want?
The truth or a lie?
All of the truth,
Can be seen in my eyes.
Forget you ever heard of me.