Missing you&;#063;

Here i am again...
Two sets of eyes and ears,
Two sets of boyhood fears,
Balled up,
Called up? sent to the bench,
A fight you lost amongst the evidence,
A little bit of blood for your last minute wish,
With a whisper of "Remember" i slip off a candy coated lip,
Sticky,
A myth of what you need, what you sell.
Once again I eat that drama and I feel F-U-L-L
Feels empty and unreal to me?
Feels like fallin in
or slepping in
Ten times the love
2 bottles of gin and
Aspirin....
Pushing my head in,
Down between the smirk,
Of wet and golden? and hard? and in
All the things I am
Like deep? and push? and "take me" and "damn"...
Surrounds you,
Pulls you?
Where the demons live in thoughts you forgot to say,
All the time? every fucking day,
And every second you move to turn on the light...
In effortless,
Dreamscape nighttime,
Nightmarish insane,
Thoughts you have? they seem so real
Step back, that's just what you steal
A love and time you can NEVER forget
Damn? I wish we never met.