Death by hope

Fifteen pink, painless pills
To end my life and kill
All the fears that have grown
Deep inside my mind.

Six more I'll take
For the consent ache
Some people choose to cause me.
But I will not, forever, be

Not for them, nor for me
A shadow that hides away
From everything that challenges me
I'd sooner die and end it all than let that be.

Oh, what a way to go
Through a means of ending pain,
I never thought I'd sink so low
As to end my life with hope.