Negative thoughts

Negative thoughts swirl round my head,
Another sleepless night lies ahead.
Wondering what tomorrow will bring? Something good?......i'm still
waiting.
Yes i'm thankful to be alive
And for my children i survive,
For they mean everything to me
With their troubles and fears they turn to me.
So what are these selfish thoughts about?
I have everything ,I don't go without.
It's about finding happiness in my heart
And to be the real me would help for a start.
Not the mother who cleans and see's everyones fed,
Not the wife who keeps him happy in bed.....
..But me?