Doubt

Did it at last
Told them my past

Just once I didn't hide
Just once I didn't lie

Wouldn't run away this time I stayed
What and how I feel explained

The pain that makes me want to cry
The pain that makes me want to die

But this courage borrowed shall not remain
The weakling you see before you returns again

Learnt it is not a good idea to try
Hopes crushed one more in a pile

Stupid to ever think that way
Imagine that I might be happy one day

Free of the way I now feel
Allowed to be real

Thought I deserved a smile
Why did I think I was worth their while

So I'll sink back where I belong
With the shadows and the night without singing my song