BLESSED

I know I'm supposed to happy all the time,
But right now I got some shit going through my mind,
I'm kind of angry and it seems as if the demons are baiting me,
Cause ever since I was a child they've been trying to play me,
Back to the Atari that when they first tried to harm me,
back in time I couldn't sleep at night from them taunting me,
Ever since then it's been impossible for Pinda to win,
So I just call myself a King and try to grow from within,
But there's just something that continues to eat away,
At my physical being as if it doesn't want me to stay,
Cause everything I ever wanted I had to get the hard way,
And I can brag all I want but I eat humble pie everyday,
As soon as I thought I had forever in my hands,
Somebody tapped me on my shoulder and said 'Gimme dat",
It's hard being the rock for everyone and you can't deal with yourself,
and I'm not complaining about that part I just need some time to myself,
But the last time I tried to something like that,
One of my G'z got clipped and I can't deal with that,
So I just don't give a fuck about you trying to stop me,
Cause I know that I'm blessed cause it is he who watches me,
I know I'm cursing but I have to let this frustration out,
as i try to figure what life is all about,
Tryna find meaning,or simple food in the mouth
Goons are ryders on the streets,thinking I' do all that
I'm a king on my beat,think Ima hold a ghat?
You must be bonkers an insane,thinking God think I was dumb
Might aswell call me a dickhead,stick a dick in my brain
Gte a flipping orgasm an cum,make little babies in my fucking head
I bet thats the reason I can't get to sleep in my bed
Well...haters just amuse yourself
You've been attacking me all my life so I just don't care,
I'm screaming bring it on with my middle finger in the air,
pounding my chest and asking whose next,
I always come out on top cause I'm better than blessed