Don't want to write these words

By Deliberately Evolving

Sun, 31 May 2015
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10 comments
 

 

Don't want to write about the
moments of tormented, claustrophobic panic 
a terrifying tragedy
about to unfold against your will,
and you can't stop it.
You can't stop it.
Like you can't stop
a speeding train,
that just crashed right 
through your heart 
to the other side -
no turning back,
everything looks bloody black 
and all so bleak, you fall to pieces.
Can't breathe, feel like you're choking 
Like you're broken.
You know you'll never cope 
without the anchor in your life 
who has been there all along,
brought you in, carried you through
thought she'd always be 
there for you.
Keeping you strong.
It's so wrong!
Now it's just you,
you're all alone,
and you will never be the same.
Things will never be right again.
A great huge, great heavy hammer 
just hit you in the face,
and now you'll have to take
the pain,
and then more pain -
Just make it go away.
I don't want to write those words;
It makes it real -
It makes it true, 
and that is why I can't say it to you.
Don't want to feel it all again.
It feels insane.
Just want things tame.
Get rid of it or hide it.
Bring this nightmare to an end.
Certificate PG
Poem

Comments

Submitted by scratch on

Hard write.  Hard read.

 

Submitted by Deliberately Ev... on

Thank you for commenting scratch. It was a hard write - a request in fact, one I wasn't really keen to oblige. 

The beat of your heart is the mellifluent rhythm to my soul.

Submitted by scratch on

Yeah I can imagine.  You did a great job of it though.

 

Submitted by Deliberately Ev... on

Thank you. That's kind of you to say.

The beat of your heart is the mellifluent rhythm to my soul.

Submitted by Bee on

Filled with raw emotion, so we'll expressed. I feel this is very much a performance piece. Well done! Hope it gets the response it deserves. 

Bee

Submitted by Deliberately Ev... on

Thanks Bee. I appreciate your support.

The beat of your heart is the mellifluent rhythm to my soul.

Submitted by EB on

Heavy with real anguish. 

Submitted by Deliberately Ev... on

Thank you for taking the time to comment.

The beat of your heart is the mellifluent rhythm to my soul.

Submitted by Philip Sidney on

An outpouring that gathers momentum, full of anguish.

Submitted by Deliberately Ev... on

Few moments are like this and it's hard to verbalise it. Thanks for reading and commenting. I know it's not a happy read.

The beat of your heart is the mellifluent rhythm to my soul.