Tonight

I want to believe
believe in what
you are no where to be seen
wont answer your phone
or even a text
would it hurt
my drive way empty
filled with darkness
what lies ahead
for ones self
wind is so cold
I can feel the snowflakes gliding
onto my face
falling so peacefully
gales trying to blow me over
not happening
my life is on a path

close the front door
outside light goes off
I may not be a cat
yet invisible I am

standing still
with my head turning stiff
my body shaking
yet my fist is clenched
around this knife I yield
my body is so cold now
here i go
my hand reaches up
my head rises ...

knife hits the floor
I hear it
bounce on the ground

my hands reach for my ...

the sky is so black
filled with death
the wind
pushing the voices of others past
like whispers in my ear
the floors wet
though its snowing
I cant move
my white jacket
now invisible to naked eye
maybe I'll be rescued
no im being ridiculous

thoughts
running through my head
so fast i cant breathe

i want to say
one last word
no-one around
no surprise

I'll drift away
slowly like im sleeping
the darkness will cover me
wind will take my soul away
on another journey

my eyes shut
its bed time now
never to wake again