The Incredible Decision of Simplicity or Insanity
☆ The Incredible Decision of Simplicity or Insanity.
'Inconveniently' detained at a crossroads in this surprising game called 'life'.
Happily blessed with reality separation and plagued of 'fantastic' realizations from a higher communication- my imagination 'opening' my connection to somewhere else.
Greatly' 'hoping' for an awakened premonition, and 'dreaming' of an enlightened revelation; both leading me to a helpful prediction.
I'm thinking of removing the chains in which my mind is confined.
Questioning whether I take the path of a descending sanity elaboration, or 'instead' giving in to a contemplation of finally arising- oxygenating my brain, and settling for the normalcy around me; 'bathing' myself in acid rain caused from dreams lost by evaporation. . . the latter 'is' what's expected of me, but the rebel in me would disagree.
"I was never one to follow in sync, 'Luckily'".
We 'all' have been building towards 'simplicity' living among society's restrictions, but I am unsure whether 'simplicity' is 'actually' what's right for 'me'.
Is Insanity 'really' such a horrible thing? "So far it seemingly is setting myself free".
Who needs psychiatry when 'insanity' is very much free, and nature's blessing in a 'most' comforting kind of way- a 'feeling' almost 'surreal' by removing the sting.
Should I really care if it isn't real? Better yet what if 'this truly is' what I feel?
Risking a simple life of growing old, or take a chance by 'risking everything' while my life unfolds; living as an artist making an impact through my stories told. . . . sharing the opinions of my earlier souls.
. . . .Is Insanity what becomes of me?
What if this 'is' in fact where my wisdom originate's from? I'm officially in a 'spectacular' conundrum.
It definitely 'could' be worth losing my sanity, reaching the 'incredible' feats in which I am on the brink- my mind inflating and levitating, while I sink further 'beyond' what even my 'dreams' could reach.
I 'know' I have the power to out think the best of my selves, but 'only' when I'm 'not' cursed of a clear coherent state.
I believe that of 'what I speak' will assist in this most difficult game, and possibly end with myself reaching fame- hopefully teaching others of their reach, by leaving them 'speechless' through my vivid speeches uncontested- leaving 'even myself' mentally arrested.
It 'feels' as if losing my sanity is what 'allows' my lyrical ingenuity to exist.
What if I dont want to resist? The idea that I should 'try' is what many would insist.
They're just jealous that I might persist.
Even the 'geniuses' of our history nearly insane, were of the highest stature.
Take Einstein for instance: he was 'known' to be a man of the strangest kind of crazy- an impressive freak of 'incredible' nature; with a most 'beautiful' brain of 'puzzling' structure.
I guess if I 'were' placed among the greats, even among those of eccentric behavior; I wouldn't consider it 'too' bad a fate.
"My insanity lasting eternally through a 'rising' to be remembered".
"That sounds about right".
I admit I am no Einstein, or even a Mozart, I 'am' something else entirely; a similar kind of monster, but of a 'different' variety- with a devilishly wicked delivery 'inside' me.
Closing in on this 'massive' decision of which choice within my sight is right.
I know to have the ability within my grasp, but I continue to ask 'which' route is of a smarter path.
For the choice holds my future hostage upon it's plate; I need to make a choice 'before I continue forward', and not fall prey to hesitation 'or' to the submission of fate- for this choice 'is' my own, and of 'mine' alone.
I need to hurry in choosing my road, but I am hesitant because I 'may' not receive another.
"But that's life I suppose".
I may have 'actually' already chosen and not even known.
Taking the road filled of 'delusions' and 'impressive' confusions, through a most incredible fight- surpassing what most to 'think' to be right, and resulting in the most 'surprising' resolution given invite.
The best example of 'self preservation' taking flight.
Even 'if' insanity is at my door. . .
. . . At least I'm happy in the fact I'm 'finally' giving back the competing temptations that were making the worst impact, and 'instead' living for something 'much' greater than before.
"I just wish 'life' wasn't such a bore".
With that at my back, I may 'in fact' embrace my delusions- happily looking forward to 'what' could be in store.
The most 'maddening' of solutions I admit, causing my mental frame to be black, blue and bruised; symbolically sore- the swelling of my mentality in an 'uproar'.
Leaving sadness in my past, and making the 'brightest' of lights appear over my path- "finally at last".
Isn't that 'worth' separating from my realities constrictions?
"I will think about this while I slumber".
"I have made a decision, and decided of a compromise, for 'if' I am to be 'insane', I choose the path of an 'artistic' enterprise- taking the impressive lane, forever expanding my 'crazy' brain. . .
. . .Which, "as you can see, I am already on the way."
Claiming the most egotistical status: "of a true genius of late"- sneaking my way among the greats.
Do me a favor, and 'don't ever wait on fate', for she will will always be late: an opinion of 'self correction' from my ancient selection- I place 'that' among my predictions.
Removing my constraints, including the chains I 'escaped' through my artistic feats- "I no longer need to contemplate".
It was a painful wait, but I can 'now' say, thanks to the removal of 'fate':
I choose the path of "insanely creative", and fearlessly 'embrace' my new mental state.
Maybe one day you will join me among the greats. . . if so, I will see you in limbo 'between' my existence.
"I love my 'true' delusions so richly in place".
Instead of a magician calling 'his' talents magic, I similarly claim that 'illusions' are of what I'm made.
My insanity awakening a lyrical master, of rhythmatic disaster.
"Placing 'the magnificent' after my name, or possibly 'the great'. . . . better yet, maybe un-simply 'the insane'".
"Effectively finding the reset button in this 'Earthly' game".
Matthew R Stephenson
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