Back here again

Those few weeks
seem so long ago
now i'm back here again,
in the lonely husk
of the walls
within which i dwell,
just wishing
i was home again
and not in this
makeshift cell.
When i'm with you
i feel free
as a bird,
soaring on thermals,
when i'm here
i feel almost nothing at all.
True, i still
feel happy
from time to time,
but mostly just numb,
from the hole left inside.
See where you're not here
next to me,
a part feels like it's missing,
yes you are always with me
in my heart it's true,
but it's not quite
the same as being cuddle up close,
whispering in your ear
"I love you"