Hold It Together

she's sitting in a cupboard

waiting for people who aren't looking

to find her

like she did half a lifetime ago

don't make too much noise

they might hear you

stifle your sobs

or you might make your sick father sicker

or you might push your deep mother deeper

no one's coming

no one's coming

scratching at the purple paint

the purple paint

the purple pain

find me before I drown,

I'm drowning

it's a long way down

save me before I break

I'm breaking

I can't do this on my own

can anybody hear me?

I don't exist, I'm nothing

this hurt hollows

to the bottom

set it free, let it out

cut it from your skin

and let it bleed til the

good blood comes

No. No.

Hold it together.