I Am

I am
the greatest of actors
who you want me to be
perfect only in unrest
at anytime
at anyplace
anywhere
I am
what you need to see
the alternate sight
well, maybe not
what you need to see
what you want to see
close enough
I am
the one man show
forced to please
because that is it
all I have
all I was
all I used to be
I am
the jester in the king's court
the only moronic fairy tale
once made truth
but set free
but bound
but only
I am
gone before me
the mistakes of the past
leaving trails few and far between
my past
my present
my future
I am
drawing the lines of me
in the sand
only to be windswept
away looking above
away living below
away from here
I am
that which I am not
ending up in the middle
apart from the center
wholly together
wholly apart
wholly inferior
I am
drifting in the midnight
cloudy and forgotten
alone on these misty seas
just you and me kid
just you and me
just me
I am
all that I am meant to be
going down death's road
to live in Glory forever
with life
with love
with peace
I am
loving every minute of it
hating every moment
living for tomorrow
hoping it will come
hoping it will stay
hoping it will leave
I am
living only for the moment
hanging on to the yesteryear
lonely in the crowd
of sleepless ones
of angel's wings
of unforgiving forest eyes
I am
left outside in the shelter
to make my life work
with what I've been given
to live
to learn
to consume
I am
the only one
capable of understanding
this lifesource of words
that which I am of
that which I am for
that which I will be
I am
adopting the silence
hoping to fill the abyss
with words of wisdom
incapable of providing
incapable of forgetting
incapable of failing
I am
the last toy soldier
only living for tin battles
thirsting for mercury
looking for solace
looking for escape
looking for separation
I am
perfectly imperfect
implying one thing only
life living is worth dying for
and no matter the facts
or losses
or excuses
or exceptions
I am
that which I am not
that which I always will be
that which I want to be
that which I will forget
that which I will remember
that which I am.