Me,myself and them.

When I had been a kid or to use my own more parental approach to
speech, I had always been more or less the only person in our near
district that had my liking for what what had cautiously became the
same near goal that society had managed to disallow.

My youngest son Phillip was an eagerest always stating, "I want". As if
to say in his own perhaps manner that I had to leave behind the working
class child within myself, after all I had come to love myself
indefinably.

In the middle my daughter Emma, a more careless free spirit who I
gladly hardly saw as her endless supply of energy would simply exhaust
me. However I admired that she eventually planned to adopt a career in
childcare. I secretly hoped it would be for the under privileged.
My youngest, aged 3, didn't hardly speak at all.

Gladly they were a happy bunch only for Phillips statements of what (to
the family anyway) was not an issue. However, to me it was something
else. Also my wife's endless ranting on about charities being only mere
frictions to a society that was not truly happy being itself and most
importantly couldn't truly accept where it belonged. This is a quote I
myself would have jokingly made in the past.

She didn't know of my past, opinion or childhood, had never asked and
it was not a liking of mine in all honesty. To be honest I hardly
remembered her age and was too polite to mention this fact.

In relation to that was the unoptimistic attitude to what had been a
more suspect able analyze of what had been problem for some time. More
or less the only thing left was the fact (and I thanked God for) was
that others admired me. Not especially family, but yet had also
accepted that perhaps feelings in a kind way, would never be met by
anyone but myself.

A brilliance of nature yet a relented way of developing the view to
those I saw as friends, family and work colleagues. I dreamed of one
that was all three, silently at times, arguably with some, and quit
with others. All in all the only true person I have is my person with
feelings and childhood memories my life's quest had issued me to
find.