Overspiced And Shallow Days

So long ago in shallow roadblocked days
The narrow passageway was vague and void
A complicated hindrance, a temporary barrier
to deep-seated ingrained feelings that only lasted 30 years
I pulled a shameless sham so brilliant, magnificent flaring
fakery
no one would have chanced a guess, least of all reluctant me
Flying far above the madding crowd, gliding bantamweight
careening blindly through the unofficial motions
I had no underlying talent to acquaint myself with me

The farflung universe at large left the fickle fates in charge
a variety of broadband sticky situations
mortal combat challenges that I clung to
Off-the-record lingering flavor, unemotional support
insecure rescue, cherry candy Life Savers fastly melting on my
tongue

Resolute courage foundering as I swam against the riptide
currents
through polluted shark-infested waters
I finally made it to the shorelined coast, through salty crashing
waves
Understanding that in my worthwhile efforts
the toughest test by far is to save myself
from the drowning stormtossed sea of raging pain

Accepting the unfailing lessons garnered
invaluable experiences heaped upon my daily plate
Receiving them in heartfelt gratitude, thanksgivings so sincere
Even tho the various dishes offered
might be overspiced with sorrow, hurt, and bitterness

I've lived my life too scared to throw the difficult, elusive
hard to catch Hail Mary Passes that lead to victory and beyond
because my brain's receptors
were not positioned solely on the touchdown goal..
The headon crash course came
with the clash of softened mind and ironed will
The final realization, the defining winner's stance
I can give as well as take the trophy of deserved happiness