Should I stay&;#063; Should I go&;#063;

Should I stay? Should I go?
When staying would be harder
And leaving would be smarter?
How am I meant to know?

Should I be the martyr
And stay to face my worries
Or leave them all behind me?
Who am I to barter

The pros and cons of sea,
Sun and the city over
Comfort, wealth and a home where
The possibility

That I could be happy,
Or sad, lies? How am I to
Know where I'll find my sky blue,
When all I seem to see

Are neither clouds nor silver
Linings, just a thick blanket
Of fearsome fog? Would I get
Lonely there without the

Strength my close friends give me?
Or is that what I require?:
Some time to stand up, higher,
By myself: to live free

Of the safety net that
Became tangled round my feet?
But why do I have to beat
Myself up for the fact

That I like having friends,
That I like being homely,
That I hate being lonely,
That I won't make amends?

How am I meant to know
If leaving would be smarter
Or staying would be harder?
Should I stay? Should I go?