Ugly Days

Every step that I take,
It's just another mistake,
To you,
And this poem is dedicated,
To those who I have scorned,
Or disappointed,
As an apology,
And a speech for myself,

About the fact that you cannot change,
What I actually am,
Because this is the way I was born,
I'm sorry if all I do is fail and scorn you,
Sorry but I am not the others.

I love you guys and I would hate,
To disappoint you.
I've failed every exam that I've taken,
But I have tried so hard, and got this far,
It's what you get,
For being dyslexic,
I've probably spelt that wrong too,
I'm starting to cry,
Have you got a tissue?
The night is still young,
I will not sleep,
All I do is lay here and weep,

And I'm sorry!
If you loved me!
For what I could have been!
But for everyone who doubts me,
For everyone who shouts at me,
I am good enough,
I am so tough,
I can take a bit of rough,
These times may be hard,
It's burning you and you're charred,
But I can hack the heat,
And when you and I meet again,
Maybe you will understand,

This terminology,
But this is just a,
Never-ending apology,
I'm so sorry.
I did it wrong,
I messed up and I was out of tune in your song,
This world is different for everyone,
I'm sorry if you don't regard me as fun,
It is not my fault,
I didn't raise me,
So how come you,
Never praised me?

So why don't you slap me?
On the back of the hand,
Though you've never done that in your life,
It would be better,
Then those Disappointed Eyes,
Looking at me,
And all you do is Sigh,
And sigh,
Oh God Forbid I don't know why,
I've tried as hard as I can try.

And I am!
What I am!
You can't take away my individuality!
This time I feel!
Undecided and excited,
Because you are not right,
I am so bright,
Like a light,
Shining, glowing,
Beautiful,
This apology is a revolution,
I'm sorry I hurt you,
But I am,
What I am,
I can hack it,
I can do it,
So I will be myself and be so proud of me,
If you are not,
I always will be,
Watch out,
I am frankly,
Appalled because of your,
Disappointed Eyes