Me

I wish I just could be dead,
instead of all my friends,
Nobody would give a shit,
course am just waste of space.

I used to love it when blood,
used to run down my wrist
it felt really nice,
but a shame I didn't feel the pain.

Cutting my self was good,
I got the sense I was a life,
but my friends, kept stopping me
for going further down in to me.

Why, did they want me to be a live,
I felt like their were punishing me,
so I could live my life in vain.

I don't want to cry I don't want to be sad,
that's not what me is about,
I want to be happy, like the rest of the people.

Yet the other side of me doesn't want to die,
am scared, really really scared,
what do you do when your gone?
it's stupid, I know.

People don't want to talk about death,
they think and you think that am crazy,
I want to live for ever and ever just like a story book,
but I can't,
I don't see the point of people making babes,
course they can die before you, there's no point in it is there?

Sometimes I can't believe that I had to be born
what would it be if I wasn't born that my parents
had a different child, would it still be me???

Am confused, real real confused,
I don't know if I still want to be a life
or be dead.

Sometimes I can't feel my own self,
I've got to nip my self just to see if am a live or not,
but yet, I think that I am not !!!!

I wish that I was perfect in every way,
if I was, I might not feel all this,
and I might have had different friends,
witch I love all my friends to bits and would
not give them up for nothing.

I wish that everyone just leave me alone,
I hate people who are two faced cows,
all the bitch's get what they want from life,
they get the love life what they want,
but people like me, get lads what walk over you,
just like if you where a piece of shit,
they kick shit out of you,
for no reason at all.

People who know me,
please don't speak to me,
don't invite me to no where,
course am just waist of space
just pretend that I don't exist,
that am dead.

03-Jun-02