E~ Vampire's Lament

Thirst.
That unquenchable desire that courses through my veins.
I thirst from sun's setting to its rise, and all the time in
between.
I thirst for something that I know I cannot have,
And I thirst for it all the same.

It is a drug to me,
A life giving drug that I cannot abandon.
Roller coaster ride through hell and ecstasy.
Sweet drink.
Bloody Mary, slaughterhouse style.
I thirst for you,
And I thirst for you all the time.
I cannot give you up,
Or I will die.

They call me a monster.
Yet they consume it too.
Is it my fault I'm on top of the food chain?
There is no hope that I could be accepted,
And no help that I can count on to get me unhooked.
Outcast of society,
Outcast of kin,
Creature of the night.
Better I were dead.

And yet I still cling on to that shred of humanity.
I know I must retain it,
Somewhere deep inside.

So much freedom.
So much restriction.
So much pleasure.
So much pain.
Eternal paradox,
The nightstalker.

I am the vampire.