Insomnia

Suffocating in sticky sheets
Twisted, encasing, preventing
Sweet dreams, darkness deafens,
Stars hidden, fox is screaming,
Dust settled, land of bed
Torments, expanse is barren,
I ache, can’t get you out
Of my head, memories relentlessly linger,
Your face, laughter, joy of you,
Forever teasingly haunts,
Need you to hold me tight,
Snatch time back, just for one long night.
You’re gone, that can’t be right.
I decide to hate you, loathe you
Then decide I can’t,
Pound the floors, climb the walls,
Chase shadows into cold dawn,
Put kettle on, read books with no words,
Smoke trails drift lazily, ashtray full,
Night becomes lonely morn,
Bursting song, sun rise signals new day,
I wonder if I’m dying,
Separating lie from truth,
Truth from lie, sorry love story,
Played those lead parts, or did I?
Hide the phone, must be strong.
It’s all gone so horribly wrong.
Fruitless, no use, as weary body
Crumples, cries, effort to deny,
Pointless, when you were my life.