Be still

I thought that I was over this,
I thought that I was done.
I thought that I could go on,
I thought that I had won.
I thought that you were nothing,
I thought that I was free,
But everything I think I thought has fallen down on me.

I wish I didn't feel this way,
I wish that this weren't so.
I wish that things would stay the same,
I wish that things would change.
I wish that we were all grown up,
I wish I things weren't so strange.
But everything I wish for never comes to be.

I thought I didn't love you.
I wish i never had.