Mixture of Emotions.

A mixture of emotions,
A whirlwind so wide.
Could anyone really know,
Just how much I hide?

I try to explain,
But words can't describe;
The intense amount of pain,
That I feel deep down inside.

Who could ever see,
That secret part of me?

If I opened up my heart,
Would you run away?
Would you leave me all alone,
Or would you always stay?

Would you leave me standing
Behind the closed door,
Or would you let me in,
To fall and weep upon the floor?

Where would I start?
What would I say?
Would you think less of me,
for what happened that day?

When the fear surrounds me
And chokes my every breath
And the light remains no more.

I only have one choice,
Which is to use my voice,
Until the barriers come tumbling down
And I can see what I once saw before.