Not Even Close

Not even close to being tired

Not even close to going home

Can't understand why I'm so wired

When I'm just sitting here alone

 

Now you call to say you miss me

I hope that you're filled with regret

Cause I'm as bitter as I should be

And I'm on my hundredth cigarette

 

But I'd be lying if I said

I didn't miss you much at all

Now I'm just dying to be dead

I guess I'll answer your next call

 

Not even close to being over

Not even close to being done

Can't understand why I'm still sober

Cause lately living just ain't fun

 

I fear I've sunken to your level

Once you were better than the best

Made in the image of the devil

Now I'm no better than the rest

 

I used to think "I can't be broken"

Now I've shattered every bone

I give a pebble as a token

Of a heart that's turned to stone

 

Not even close to being tired

Not even close to going home

But pretty close to getting fired

Cause everyday I show up stoned

 

I hope you know he was my best friend

I hope you know he was my last

Some begginings have no clear end

I thought I left you in the past

 

Thought I erased you from my memory

Contacts deleted from my phone

Still you whisper so tenderly

I'm so afraid I'll die alone

 

Not even close to being finished

Not even close to being through

My dusty mind must be refurbished

Cause it won't stop thinking 'bout you