i miss you :(

I miss your guidence, i miss your smile, i miss the way you made me laugh. I love you nanny, and i know your in a " better place now" buti miss you, and to me the better place was here with me. I needed you to help me, i needed you with me, why did you have to go ?! i am not angry at you although sometimes i feel it, it would of hurt you as much as it hurt me for you to have to go. You helped me through life so much, you meant everything to me. Some nights i sit there contemplating why someone would do this to me, why they would take someone i needed so much aways from me i miss you so much. You kept me going through good times, you helped me so much, and i need you right now. When the phone rings i panic, my breathing becomes irregular, sweat runs down my head and surrounds the palm of my hands but then i realise what i am panicking about has already happened, why you ?! why did they have to take you away from me :(