Sunk into Skin

I wonder why I dwell in hate
Why is this life the one I forsake
Do I think I'll get another chance
To sit around, smoke weed, and rant
I've been neck deep in shit my whole life
Teeter at the edge while my soul burns with strife
The harmful complications soon brought
By the dreams and joy that I once sought
I am only effective when the misery has sunk into my skin
When the world is so bleak it seems there is no way for me to begin
I take it as a challenge and fight
I push at these memories with every ounce of might
If God does exist he needs to answer me
Because these questions burn with agony
Squalid hellhole - my life sucks
Surrounded by these mindless fucks
These people "help with shitty advice
They smile at me and act so nice
Their knives are ready for my back
These assholes wait to bring the attack
I never sleep, my mind will race
I stalk the world, I wait and pace
My soul turns to ash from this disgrace
Voluntarily entered this place