Inner Turmoil

My mind is in turmoil
The end is not near
There is no end of the tunnel
Our future I fear

I can't make sense of this
It's draining my thoughts
The expectation of bliss
Within a messy web i'm caught

Do I expect too much
Must I punish the problem
Understand my touch
And release my demon

Must I leave to be needed
Take back the beginning
Would it be heeded
Or bring about the ending

I fill in the gaps with thoughts
Because I am given no choice
This makes me distraught
And I still have no voice

I'm screaming in a vacuum void
Only I can hear my calls
My feelings are being ignored
As I build on previous walls

This isn't fifty fifty, no, not at all
Taken for granted and expected to perform
I'm a machine that answers to a call
Complete's his duties and returns to a smoky cocoon

Create a disturbance in the darkness
Might bring substance to emptiness
But the change might increase
The opportunity for release

This would be a risk
Not one i'd like to take
But it might be the only way
Of avoiding the lovers break

So confusing, I don't know what the problem is
But it's there, in my head, flowing like a mist
Clouding my judgement like a road in fog
Leaving the future drowning in doubts bog