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How are you my love??

After work the next day,i logged into YM.No offline messages for me.I checked my mail..nothing from her.
Many other girls still msg. me.
I sat down a while,and i wrote a letter saying that i had found someone,so they didnt waste theyre time with me.I pasted it to everyone interested in me.
I dont know why i did this.I mean,i had no idea if she liked me,i just knew i wanted dark_angel,and nobody else mattered.
I didnt even know her name.I felt sad again.
Dark_Angel signed in
Dark_angel: am here now! sorry about yesterday ok?
dark_angel: how are you?
Guntracy: thank you for coming back
Guntracy: i am fine,and you?
Guntracy: it must sound strange,but i really,really like you ok?
I wanted to say love,but i thought it was weird to write after just meeting her just one time before,so i said "like".
Dark_angel: i really like you too..can i call you love?
Dark_angel: and you can call me baby ok?
I had no clue why she wanted to call me love,i just said "ok",and pretended it was the most normal thing in the entire world to do after one day of chatting.
Dark_angel: aaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!..my love! i really like talking with you here you know!
guntracy: I like talking with you too.Can i ask your name?
Dark_angel: my name is vivian ok? and you?
Guntracy: my name is Geir.Its a old viking name,and norway is the only country in the world to use it.It means "sharp" or "pointed".
Dark_Angel: ic?
Dark_angel: anyway love! its so hot here!!i need some water ok?
Guntracy: ok baby
It feelt
weird.
i just wished i could be the one saying love,and not baby.
I must be old.
Sometimes.I mean,sometimes after i met her on the net,
before i meet her for real,
i could sit at home,and start to think how insane the whole situation was.
I mean.
I am here,up in the cold north,and she is half a world away from me.
I had no idea who she REALLY was.What kind of person.What kind of friends,nothing like that.
I had to trust her words in YM,and that was hard sometimes
especially,i remember one period.Friends of mine told me the facts about
what i was doing.That she could be playing me,try to scam me for money.
All the "normal" things i have heard so many times before.
And in that period,i tried to "frame" her.i was trying to catch her in a lie,
I analysed our conversations,i did all this,because my friends told me she was
"maybe" trying to fool me.I did not trust her,just my friends.
I decided it had to stop.I had to make a choice.
Either,i had to stop talking to her,or stop listening to my friends.
So,i decided to do what was in my heart.
I let go all my suspicions,and decided to trust her with all my heart.
After that,my relationship with Vivian changed for the better.
We started to talk about our dreams.Our hopes for the future.
And,i am not naive.I mean,i am a dreamer.But i know that many of
the women there will marry almost "anyone" just to get a better life,
for theyre familys,and themselves.
I look pretty average i guess.I am not ugly.I have a normal body.
I dont drink much.Only bad habbit i have is smoking.
I smoke alot.