Death's Longing,

Death's Longing, 

 

She is one of those people who is loved by everyone

When she walks into a room everyone lights up

She is the type of person to always smile

No one sees her in pain 

No one questions to see her true emotions

Only because she learned to knit pain into camouflage 

 

It seems as though she cares for others more than herself

When she forgers to help herself 

She would talk to me

About how lonely and broken she is 

I comfort her when needed

But my comfort scares her

She fears me, Death

Yet sometimes she enjoys my comfort

 

I remember when she was a little girl 

She had the most beautfiul eyes

Eyes of an innocence

That have never seen what the world truly is 

I was spoken of when times needed

I was tucked away from her, for protection

 

She couldn't understand who I am 

As years go on

We learn to get to know each other

I have gotten to know everything about her

How she hates the sound of a heart beat

A sound that I crave adn selfishly take away for myself

You see, each person as a different heartbeat

I am captivated by

Her heartbeat is something that I longingly want

But she won't let me have

I have come close many times

But Life has won against me

 

Shes older now 

And has become more familiar of who I am 

She understands me

Fears me

But visits when she is broken and empty

I comfort her for the time being

Hoping that one day she will be mine

So I can have the sound of her hear beat for myself

                                                                            h.c. 

3.22.15

11:00 pm

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