A: scream till it hurts but its always the same

i can see it all now
everything
but in that bad light
the bright one
flood-lit life
its all exposed for what it is

i want to go out in the dark
go to the field
with nobody around
and scream
scream so loud
scream till it hurts me

but i know even if i did go to that field
where nobody could hear me
i still wouldn't be able to make it come out