Will you forever hate me?

Will you forever hate me
just because i used to lie all the time?

I was insane, not knowing
hating myself,
and you were that special someone
i could speak to
just for one day.

I apologize...
and i make amends, but please
it's over
it's so over
and it's killing me,
but it's over
so please please let me go
to live my life,
please,
I bow down to you,
and that is something
I rarely do.