Dear ____, - 2

Dear ____ , 

Welcome back. Maybe one day i will decide who these letters are to, maybe i will send them one day. Maybe these have turned up on your doorstep and you are going through them with extreme curiosity. Well, i am just as curious as you mysterious reader, why would i send these to you? You must be important to me. Or maybe i hate you and wanted to bore you with every thought and boring aspect of my life. I believe it is the latter, as i do not think for a second my present or future self could let anyone be close to me. So reader that i hate, what did you do to me? Did i know you well? Were you family? A friend perhaps? Or were you a stranger? A distant enemy? 

Do you feel guilty? Probably not, guilt is overrated. It is what you make yourself feel as compensation for what you have done wrong. It relaxes the stress, right? Helps you convince yourself that you are still a good person because you feel guilty, even though you would probably do it all over again if you had the chance. Thats the thing about us humans, we never learn. We try to change, we act, but in the end we never fully learn our lesson, we are too stubborn for our own good. And so we use guilt to try and pull ourselves out of the hole we are sinking into, whether it is by forcing guilt upon someone else or having it forced upon you. 

Like i said we never learn.