The Wedding

I've got the lent, the cliched blue

An Ice silk dress expensively new

I've read the cards, the traditional hard sell

Christ, I've woken in wedding hell

Mums in tears, blushing and bright

I've had a vision, gained second sight

Gazing, through the window at the cobwebbed dew

The truth's apparent

I don't want to be with you!

Last minute nerves, it's natural says Mum

For my teeth to be clenched and my mind to be numb?

She smiles pure compassion, and right on cue

Her eyes meet mine, as she asks, "How are you!"

I'm tempted to tell her, and ruin her day

To dim her glow, to stifle her ray

Should I be honest and give her a clue?

Confess the truth, about being with you!

Dad strides past the bedroom and into the loo

He'd back me up if only he knew!

He's smartness personified as he beams through the door

The waft of fresh flowers floods to the fore

My nails are drying, and my makeup's on

My hairs perfection, but my sentiments gone

My minds in turmoil!

What the hell do I do?

I never wanted to be with you!

Your beautiful my darling, on your special day

A princess, a Queen, a silver ray

I smiled to hide my inner distress

Summoning up why the hell, I'd said yes

"Times ticking sweetheart, the cars are here!"

My heart beat faster as the end drew near

All I could think was its, over its, through

I can't spend the rest of my days with you!

The gasps in the church, as I glide through the door

Sent reality and panic, straight to my core

I step down the aisle, with Dad by my side

Checking the pillars for somewhere to hide

Then you took my hand and tightened the noose

Trapped and guarded the vicar let loose

You glared at me with your eyes misty blue

Save it!

There's no way I'm staying with you!

Smiling faces, tears, of elation

Filled the church from the congregation

My heart was muted, my head circling doubt

As the vicar launched into the second bout

The end was approaching, the pledge of I do

Do I open my mouth, and explain about you!

I looked at Mum and her tear stained eyes

My heart screamed run, but my head held the guise

With the wedding over, they stood to sing

And I swapped freedom for a glistening ring

The photographer blinded us in a barrage of light

I beamed and shone in the face of my plight

The congregation gathered, our nuptial debut

Totally oblivious

I hated you!!!

Its eventually all over a year down the line

I've smiled and I've postured, but this moments mine!

From the minute, you planted, that post marriage kiss

I've lived on a secret

That secret is this

I've waited been patient and finished the course

The secret I've lived on?

I want a divorce
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