Can't breathe

It's not easy to live with the hate inside me
I want it to go, disappear so i can be free
But i keep it bottled up iside until it bursts and let out on
people i love.
It always eds up this way and it hurts, but i am forced to
carry on.

What would their life be like without me to hurt them,
Would it be better?No me to keep them on the edge.
I feel like the cause of evil that goes around our friends
I have been pushed so far i'm on a 30 mile high ledge

One day i'll be pushed over,no fear just falling
falling down, down but i have been stopped by calling
I hear somebody stopping me from my eternal peace
leave me alone i cry death has already taken my final
breath.

To take another breath would be a crime,
I don't think i deserve it after all this time
I want to go, i need to go. LEAVE ME ALONE
but i'm kept on this earth never to be known