hoping opposites don't attract

I am failing to repel your synonyms
with contrasting words, so
how pleasing it was to find
one so ugly already on your side.
I was interested for a moment to think:
it is hard to imagine how 'pulchritudinous'
has anything to do with you.
What you are not is my only defence
and, as it is useless against you,
I have decided to become
all of your contrasting words.
They say I should look elsewhere,
try to become the very words
that are all too easily related to you.
How agreeable I would be, except,
while I am unsympathetic, I am your antonym,
hoping opposites don't attract; anyone.
I waited for the first signs of enchanting
and clung to contrasting words as repellent.
I stayed in, captivated, to avoid being bewitched.
I avoided fetching your winning eye
or losing myself to your related words:
Beckoning, provocative, you entice antipathy.
You may tantalise, because when I feel like you,
it will be your winning eye caught in my headlights,
and you don't want that, do you?