Depressed..

If I stare long enough at the floor..will it swallow me up.. ?
Will it disintegrate into sand, so I can sink slowly to the bottom, and never have to wake up.

If I stare long enough at the wall.. will it dissolve into a black hole ?
Will I get sucked into a timeless oblivian so that I never have to turn back.

If I close my eyes tightly, will I stop thinking, just for a second, just for a minute, let my mind go blank, so that I never have to think, never have to care, never have to cry.