ABC Haiku no.1

A long dark tunnel,
Stretching out in front of me.
I can see no light.

Behind me is dark.
The blackness seems just as long.
How did I get here?

Can I find my way?
Or will I lose myself here?
Right now I don't care.

Darkness envelops.
Comforts me with its blanket.
I am safe in here.

Every noise is strange.
Echoes of some distant call.
Can I hear a voice?

Far in the distance,
It sounds like you calling me.
But I could be wrong.

Given our last words,
The accusations ringing,
I keep on walking.

How could you think that?
Why would I do that to you?
I don't understand.

I'd never hurt you.
I'd rather just walk away.
And bleed in private.

Just me and my heart,
In a long dark tunnel way.
Stumbling about.

Kneeling on the floor.
Feeling for the way forward.
Or for the way back?

Love? Am I in love?
I probably was. Or Am.
But I can't tell you.

"Mustn't go too fast."
"Cannot push too hard or far."
I see your panic.

No idea which way.
Away or towards your voice.
Are you calling me?

Or are you cursing?
Shouting at my shrinking back?
Telling me to go.

Please turn the light on.
Let me see the way forward.
Guide me to safety.

Questions unanswered.
Directionless preamble.
I'm lost either way.

Rambling on now.
The balance of my mind lost.
So very confused.

So very astray.
Every noise seems to spring,
From all directions.

Therefore I must walk,
With my eyes tight shut and hope.
Instinct sees me through.

Useless intellect.
Redundant logical thought.
My feelings steer me.

Visions of you float,
Tantalising my poor brain.
Memories of us.

What should I do now?
Must listen to my own heart.
Left. Right. Straight ahead.

X-ray vision seems,
To steer me through the darkness.
My feet walking on.

Yearning for what was.
But learning to trust my heart.
Finding hidden strength.

Zigzagging my way.
I stumble to the exit.
And open my eyes.